Daddy

I've always wondered, for so many years.
Why I was never the first thing on your mind.
It was always money that came before family.
You didn't even notice when you hurt one of us.

I've always wondered why you cancelled that day.
It was my birthday, but you didn't seem to care.
Painting the house came before showing your girl that she had a father.
I tried so hard to be a perfect daughter, but it didn't seem to matter to you.

I've always wondered why it mattered to me.
That you stopped wanting to see me, when I wasn't even in my teens.
You didn't give me a reason, you just said: "dont come".
But is that a valid reason to give to your daughter and son?

I've always wondered, for so many years.
Why I wanted you back, even if it brought me tears.
I send you that letter; I had just been twelve for a week.
I was overjoyed when you replied positive. I was getting my Daddy back.

I've always wondered why you send that letter to me.
I guess you didn't want to be a father to me.
Telling me it is over hurt me more than I imagined.
I guess I had hoped that you would come back to me.

Even now I wonder, do you still think of me?
Even though I know it wont change anything for me.
You're still my father, you still matter to me.
You haven't seen me in years; you probably wont even recognize me.
Please Daddy, I want you to know me.

Please Daddy......Come back to me